looking for a job is rough.
i need a part-time job(s). living paycheck to paycheck has never been as stressful because now i actually have rent, utilities, groceries, gas to pay for. the list goes on and on.
here's the live blog of an unemployed 22 year-old.
Wed.
9:40AM: Wake Up
9:50AM: Turn on TV to Food Network
10AM: Find Little House on the Prairie on the Hallmark channel..watch it and reminisce about the good 'ol days
10:30AM: Cry about how good the episode is
10:45AM: Go on Myspace, facebook, read blogs and find recipes, check e-mail
12:10PM: Decide to be productive with my life and go swimming in the pool. Exercise
12:41PM: Looks like it is going to rain so I head inside to shower
1:12PM: IM Francesca about my job dilemma
1:30PM: Call Boys&Girl Club lady back
1:40PM: Freak out to Fran about 1 yr. committment
1:50PM: Blog about it.
Wednesday, July 30, 2008
Tuesday, July 22, 2008
Personal Enrichment
Mid-way through our walk yesterday my Aunt started to tell me a story about a study that Berkeley did with a group of students back in the 70s or 80s or something. It was about a job they had posted to a group of college students to dig a ditch. About a hundred or so students had showed up to dig this ditch for $7 an hour, a big sum of money back then. They spent all morning digging this ditch and after they came back from their lunch break, they were told they had to fill the ditch back up with soil. They asked “Why?!” and the Supervisor said, “ Don’t ask questions, just do it.” So they did. Before they left the Supervisor told them they’d be doing the exact same thing tomorrow, but they’d get a raise of $12 dollars. The next morning only 60% of the students came back and did the exact same thing. After lunch they were told to fill the ditch back up with dirt. They asked “Why?” and the Supervisor told them “Don’t ask questions, just do it.” So they did. Before they left the Supervisor told them they’d be doing the exact same thing tomorrow, but they’d get a raise of $16 dollars an hour. The next morning only 50% of the remaining students came back and did the exact same thing. After lunch they were told to fill the ditch back up with dirt. They asked “Why?” and the Supervisor told them “Don’t ask questions, just do it.” So they did. Before they left the Supervisor told them they’d be doing the exact same thing tomorrow, but they’d get a raise of $21 dollars an hour.
So..well you get the point, every day the sum of money got bigger but the number of students decreased. Basically, the moral of the story is that the students weren’t feeling fulfilled with this job, so even though they made a lot of money they felt as though what they were doing was meaningless and eventually quit. The story really resonated with me because that’s what this summer job is for me. I’ve only been here for 3 weeks and everyday I pretty much dread coming to work. I thought my Aunt didn’t understand what I was feeling but after this story I’m starting to feel like she might. She basically told a co-worker that I was lazy to get that co-worker to stop giving me tasks (I stayed at work ‘til 8:30PM once)..umm I guess her heart was in the right place, but I’m not lazy. When I’m working I try to put 110% of my energy to whatever I’m doing. I may not like it but I’m doing it. Yes, I am a different generation from my Aunt and co-workers. I don’t want to work this job, not because of the tasks I’m given, but because it doesn’t give me any personal enrichment. I work for free sometimes doing consulting work and running this street team and planning our marketing campaigns…even though it is free, I still do it because I want to. Because I like it. I don’t want an office job because I don’t belong at one. Not because I don’t have a work ethic. I may not like to wake up at 6:30AM but I wouldn’t mind doing it if it meant I was doing something I wanted to do. Why should I settle for a job just because it pays more than my current job? Like many of my other family members, my Aunt doesn’t think that my work with music is a real job or should be considered a real job just because they don’t know anyone else who does it. It would probably be easier for them if I was a musician and touring but I’m a girl, touring with musicians and selling shirts. They think that’s all I do, but it isn’t and it’s not what I’ll be doing for the rest of my life. I’ve found a team who I think values me. I hope they value me. And it is hard to find that.
Sometimes what my Aunt says contradicts how she treats my work..for example, during the same walk she was chastising a co-worker who just became a Managing Partner for talking down to some of the Legal Staff. She had said that they want to treat the Attorneys above all the other employers, but that’s not how things should be run. This true. She was saying how she used to make everyone, including the Mail girl feel really important because they are important to the overall team and the rest of her co-workers who were higher-up attorneys didn’t feel the same way. I wish she could apply that feeling to someone like a family member. I may be at the bottom of the ladder in a lot of people’s eyes but oh, well. I get to see the world and get paid to do it. I meet interesting people every day. I get to work for one of the most talented and knowledgeable musicians I know.
I’m happy and I’ve come to terms that I won’t make above $30,000 any time soon. Sad? Yes, but money is just something to buy material things with and I don’t need anything else but a roof over my head and friends.
So..well you get the point, every day the sum of money got bigger but the number of students decreased. Basically, the moral of the story is that the students weren’t feeling fulfilled with this job, so even though they made a lot of money they felt as though what they were doing was meaningless and eventually quit. The story really resonated with me because that’s what this summer job is for me. I’ve only been here for 3 weeks and everyday I pretty much dread coming to work. I thought my Aunt didn’t understand what I was feeling but after this story I’m starting to feel like she might. She basically told a co-worker that I was lazy to get that co-worker to stop giving me tasks (I stayed at work ‘til 8:30PM once)..umm I guess her heart was in the right place, but I’m not lazy. When I’m working I try to put 110% of my energy to whatever I’m doing. I may not like it but I’m doing it. Yes, I am a different generation from my Aunt and co-workers. I don’t want to work this job, not because of the tasks I’m given, but because it doesn’t give me any personal enrichment. I work for free sometimes doing consulting work and running this street team and planning our marketing campaigns…even though it is free, I still do it because I want to. Because I like it. I don’t want an office job because I don’t belong at one. Not because I don’t have a work ethic. I may not like to wake up at 6:30AM but I wouldn’t mind doing it if it meant I was doing something I wanted to do. Why should I settle for a job just because it pays more than my current job? Like many of my other family members, my Aunt doesn’t think that my work with music is a real job or should be considered a real job just because they don’t know anyone else who does it. It would probably be easier for them if I was a musician and touring but I’m a girl, touring with musicians and selling shirts. They think that’s all I do, but it isn’t and it’s not what I’ll be doing for the rest of my life. I’ve found a team who I think values me. I hope they value me. And it is hard to find that.
Sometimes what my Aunt says contradicts how she treats my work..for example, during the same walk she was chastising a co-worker who just became a Managing Partner for talking down to some of the Legal Staff. She had said that they want to treat the Attorneys above all the other employers, but that’s not how things should be run. This true. She was saying how she used to make everyone, including the Mail girl feel really important because they are important to the overall team and the rest of her co-workers who were higher-up attorneys didn’t feel the same way. I wish she could apply that feeling to someone like a family member. I may be at the bottom of the ladder in a lot of people’s eyes but oh, well. I get to see the world and get paid to do it. I meet interesting people every day. I get to work for one of the most talented and knowledgeable musicians I know.
I’m happy and I’ve come to terms that I won’t make above $30,000 any time soon. Sad? Yes, but money is just something to buy material things with and I don’t need anything else but a roof over my head and friends.
Friday, July 11, 2008
iphone 3g
since i'm an adult and have responsibilities such as work, i'm reading about the iphone 3g and the madness that is today. Quite interesting. Read it here.
Anyways, things are working out slowly but surely.
I'm working an 8 to 5. Trust me, it sucks. 'Business casual,' I never knew what that meant until now and it sucks! Overall, things in Dallas are boring. Here's to finding another city I do not like.
Got to experience my first Warped Tour..umm never again! It was great to be able to see Kristy and Derek and Shelley again, as well as meet Artie. And I finally got to watch Relient K and see DK in action! w00t.
I really want the new iphone..but I need to SAVE for a.) ipod (mine fell out of my belt clip and into the ocean); b.) rent; and c.) emergencies.
the end.
Anyways, things are working out slowly but surely.
I'm working an 8 to 5. Trust me, it sucks. 'Business casual,' I never knew what that meant until now and it sucks! Overall, things in Dallas are boring. Here's to finding another city I do not like.
Got to experience my first Warped Tour..umm never again! It was great to be able to see Kristy and Derek and Shelley again, as well as meet Artie. And I finally got to watch Relient K and see DK in action! w00t.
I really want the new iphone..but I need to SAVE for a.) ipod (mine fell out of my belt clip and into the ocean); b.) rent; and c.) emergencies.
the end.
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